So yesterday I spent 4 hours staring at my sketch pad. I had so many different images shifting through my brain that i knew exactly all the things I wanted to draw. If only I didn't suck at putting the pencil to paper! By the end of the night I was so frustrated, i chucked my pencil across the room (dramatic, I know...). I see all these perfect ideas in my head, but then when i get to the actual drawing, I can't draw human anatomy, Perspective is damn near impossible, and I don't even want to START thinking about shading. I'm not going to give up yet though. It's only one day. How can I expect to be any good at it when I'm lucky to get 3 hours total in a week!? Life is so caught up with working full time and going to the gym every day, along with other projects I've got going on at home, it's near impossible to find time for myself. My only social interaction is with my friend at 24 Hour Fitness. I miss the good days of having so much time, i didn't know what to do with myself. But I continue to spend a good amount of time looking at all sorts of images here at DA, trying to figure out what others did to pull of their ideas. Reading through tutorials for suggestions on how to make things better.

I think the funny thing is, I'm writing this, and no one is going to read it. Not that that matters at all. It's actually therapeutic for me. It's helping me collect my thoughts, and if anyone DOES happen to read this, suggestions would really be appreciated. Open question: How many people took art classes? I don't want to take an art class, cause i know I'll feel too restricted doing what they want me to do, instead of doing what I want to do, but should that matter? I don't know. I have 5 different art projects going on as well. I'm doing a freehand car design just out of my head, then I've got 3 different sketches of people/angels, and a Microsoft Paint drawing that is slowly taking form as well. I hate that they feel so two dimensional. What would be really nice is a touch screen for my computer, that would give me the best of both worlds wouldn't it? The pencil feel and control of a sketch book, but the assistance of technology to help edit and clean up images. Does anyone use one of those Wacom tablets? Are they any good? I really want one of the CintiQ, but they're expensive. Is it possible to use one of the Bamboo ones with photoshop or mspaint? I mean, I know it's "possible", but is it convenient or is it really difficult? are there any alternatives?